) am. I want a change. I want to be a new and different person... I want to say goodbye to who I am.

) gabriel is and why I'm not good enough to just be his one and only. Then I start to realize how pathetic I've become and how insecure and weak I really

) Its interesting how hard I can fall into depression. Again just now I cried out of thoughts and negative observations on how fruitless my relationship w

I'm damaged goods.

s u do to me w no problem.

Its like I'm a gooddamn punching bag and the more you freely say the shit u say to me the lesser value I have to u, that's why u continue to do the thing

of it, bc I hear ur issues and I want to be better, but its still all so negative that its eating away at the foundations of love I have for us and you.

All that, plus how u snap @ me, get irritated, taking out all ur anger and frusturation out on me, talking shit and down towards me? I take it in, all

- Fwd: U know how u said the other day that ur really starting to not like me, that ur starting to hate me, and that you're going to break up w me soon?

No ones home. House to myself. No company. Thought I'd be scared and negative on my own. I don't feel alone. I'm @ peace.